doubledeckers

On the exercise tonight - don’t you know pump it up. you got to pump it up!

The aerobics bit was alright, it was mainly the bums and tums bit. Ending up feeling so sick - think because my stomach muscles are so unused to being worked… so only made it halfway through. If I’m being honest I was punishing myself cos I ate a caramel shortcake this evening. Yesterday we brought a pack of 3 to have for pudding and I just went along with it and ate it, and then today He went off gigging overnight and I’ve sat and eaten the last one. Knew I would. Its so hard when you know its sitting in the fridge. Its hard too cos I’m still in the mind set of eating really shit whenever I’m on my own cos I know no-one will know.

I also REALLY need to stop drinking diet coke. Its just crap, but I’m slightly addicted, it feels naughty cos its sugary tasting. But all the sweeteners and aspartame have got to be awful for me. I’ve also starting eating hard cheese again and that’s really bad for me and my throat so am gonna really try to kick the habit. God I’m still shaking. need to place more moderation on the exercise - bring it in more gradually.